Tuesday, October 23, 2007
hopeless failure.....
...i am such a failure.... fail.... fail and more fail....... what the hell man.... this is totally just "great"....my end of year overall result just suck.... great.....i think most likely i am gonna retain for next year.....such a disappointment...... and a unexpected result...... well ...... there is nothing i can say or do ........my results are already in my face..... even if i wanted to blame anyone i can only blame myself........for being that dumb or stupid not being able to learn that much or to learn what the teacher teaches ...... the truth is i suck and i know it...... i already knew that i would get such a result .... i predicted such a downfall...... just that i didnt expect it to be real......
i am a disgrace to myself.... i cant believe that my friends can pass while i am left behind.... man the hell does it suck.... not very happy with that .... friends go pass while i stay behind...... kind of gives me the feeling i am an odd ball or an "xtra" person or left out..... i dont really feel anything anymore.... i have become a "cold" and hated person.... is that it?...... have i just left the world without knowing it? couldnt be.... cause i will be left behind after this year as my friends move on to sec 4 i will stuck at sec 3 ....again.... i will most likely feel abit too uneasy..... due to the fact next year sec 3 of 1993 surround me as sec 3s and i as suppose to be a "sec 4" is stuck at sec 3 ...... its such a disgrace..... my fellow friends who see this post ...... " KNOW THIS AND GET THIS IN YOUR HEAD , IF U DONT NOT WORK HARD NEXT YEAR ...... U WILL SEE MY THE SAME LEVEL AS U THE FOLLOWING YEAR".As the times go ... thy friends will start to leave and be forgot or get lost ...... no matter how many friends u have they will leave u someday and that will be 1 of the days u will forget or lose contact with them.....then the gaps between u and ur friend will widen up and soon they will not remember who u are even though u can work in the same company or live in the same flat not "recognizing" each other .... and just like that the bond between the friends has disappeared..... thy ..friends shall be with u , and thy friends will slit ur throat....
One may hold the word "friend" as an important "thing" but ,the question is does your "friend" take the "friendship" as important as u? ...... thatz the real question ....Labels: Path of a tain failure who cant do anything right...
Posted by ben at 3:09 AM