Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Another one of those days(2)
The work i done in schoolSeriously i went there to slack ending up getting pissed of by a bitch who thinks she knows all and the best thing is she names me a "dog" .Nevermind that i suppressed my anger and tried calming down but the bitch wouldnt even shut the bloody fuck up when i am not talking even to her .She will ask my friend which is also her friend eh you understand dog language ar ? All i can hear is woof woof woof.What is he trying to tell us his mad ? or does he want us to call the SPCA.
The best thing was i never even offended her .Her reasoning of why i am a dog and why she hates me is because of my face it doesnt look good la ,i smile then look like some pervert la .
Seriously who the bloody hell does she think she is ? It doesnt mean that you are a girl that gives you the right to insult someone else just because of their looks .Who are you ,GOD? Jump down and die la please your fucking face is as good as a car just ran it over la hor .
Saying until like i am some stalker or what .What the Fuck la hor . Please la my friend ask me come down slack not come down to give you fuck me upside down 1 hor .You curse and swear about me i dont mind i will tolerate as much as possible but have you no dignity ? Bitch!My parents also want scold and insult? Who the bloody hell you think you are some god that will cast judgement on people depending on their looks thats the result they get ?You are seriously too overboard.
My day from the slacking mood went straight up to nearly the last straw. My friends although didnt really do anything to prevent it i can see they couldnt do much either and the more i talk back the more it gives the bitch the chance to say that the dog is barking can you understand it?
Damn you to hell bitch i swear if you are my friends friend you are as good as dead .Another joke to laugh at ,the bitch comes along and says i am a Jerk not like a gentlemen ,but Whos the one starting the fight and add oil to it trying to test me is it?If i am not a gentlemenly like ,your face would have long meet the wall or the table.
Doesnt mean i dont say anything ,Doesnt mean i dont feel anything .I seriously question myself why be so gentlemenly like for? Is that a point ? Cant i be some bad boy causing problems here and there?So for once can i be the bad boy?
Labels: Can i be the bad boy ?
Posted by ben at 9:33 AM
Friday, July 17, 2009
Random postage
The day is bright and all smiles are back on trackAway with the dark clouds that shuns me from the sun
I want to be bright
I want to be enlightened
Thus the time that one lost to implusiveness
Has regained control of his consinece and has rebooted
The Smile All The Time Programme
Cells systems green
Muscles systems green
Attitude systems green
Bracers systems red ( T.T how long more sia )
All systems go . Smiles ACTIVATE .
Facial muscle pulling at 100%
Lips are open 80%
Bracers shown 50%
rubber bands constriction 150% (ouch )
Lol dont ask me why i writing this its for fun i am bored.
Self entertainment from -10% recovered to 80%
Slacking attitude from 200% has dropped to 100%
Thus the smile is up and runnning
And that concludes this post .
Labels: Random postage on smiles
Posted by ben at 7:46 AM
Thursday, July 16, 2009
One of those days
Well today is one of those days....where i do not feel like myself at all.Today school started off with english ya lesson was ok...Then social studies miss huang never come as she had course so ya free period and this is where my friend took a picture of me using my phone.Ya now the mood is really turning into serious as i am studying .After that was p.e. my yon was pretty disappointed by the class attitude as only 8 person wore pe attire.
Recess ate with jas,jon & jian rong well we ate and then ya as usual jr and jon proof disappear .Used to it nevermind , left jas me and eng kun was there eating so we decided not to pang seh him .(see we so good ,zai hor)
D&T ...................... the recess ended the smile it was there that the whole day flipped .i was doing the acrylic that would help to suppose the handle from like yesterday till today .... today i was rather coming impatient to completing my product for once and for all.I ended up super glueing it for like 3 times it didnt work as the acrylic wasnt flat .it totally racked my product and ended up not sticking together .Dam the hell am i pissed and i had enough of wasting time .... i tried to take out the other side which managed to stick resulting it breaking....... that was the last straw
i totally lost the calmness i had .Impulsiveness took over me ...... i couldnt think right from then on. The bell had rang and the stains had harden and dried up.Looking at the damaged i cause i crumbled into bits .
To the effort that was been wasted for almost 2months of constant staying back gone to waste .
Lit was next and i told mrs bryant i wasnt in the correct mood she understood it but i still tried to pull back my focus to the lesson as i dont wanna fail anything.
Ring ~and the lesson ended . Met choco outside the library planned to go in but diverted to the workshop. I wasnt myself then and i think i lost control of myself all my emotions went wild.
Upon seeing the hideious scar again . i feel angry and furated and the limit finally broke .
Choco realised that i wasnt in the correct mood and she tried calming me down which didnt have much effect .She tried all sorts of things she even tried saying that she would throw something at me .I know my personality well enough . i would give a very slying or fakesmile grin one with the phrase "try me i dare you" .
well she tried conforting me as i keep rebending my holder again and again and again ... which actually made my mood swing worst.As i was lost in my impulsivenes i smacked choco's leg . I didnt really wanted to do it trust me ,it was pretty loud and she didnt react after that i was pretty much suprised well ."Sorry ,Choco" my apologises if you see this.(Thanks for being there)
well after that i chased her away after that fearing that i might injure her due to my lack of control .In a good way i and saving her and in bad way i am chasing her away i think i was trying to save her but in the end i ended up shun her away which did pretty much the same ...
Not long later the Ladies of 4n2 and jasmine came into the workshop ya i know my face seemed pretty down and upset and somewhat scary .Sorry if i might have scared you all or what.
I managed to complete my product and tried to head home asap due to the mood swing but got delayed by mr tay with the lecture of my journal.
After that slacked away in school i dont know why but i was planning to go home ended up there slacking until 6 before going to eat at rp . then went home on com lie down on bed for awhile fell asleep until 8+
i went to check my com to see if i had a conversation ya i had one zoe was talking to me she seemed somewhat worried . ya thanks for concerning
Labels: Its one of those days (1)
Posted by ben at 8:17 AM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Weds is boring as usual
The usual wednesday,boring like shit ........ wake up around 9.50+ tmd abit goggy ... i went school at the school around 10.15am .Was pretty crap ,i remembered to take the kitkat for choco.Reached school in time and ya redrawed the class key , set the bag down and slacked~ ......Then took the ku ku temperature and when to library and exchanged the (brown)kitkat with a (white)kitkat with choco.we talked a bunch of crap ya was pretty funny we laughed abit here and there ...Bell rang and went up back to class for CDP . totally retarded....... teacher taugh us how to make a break up less painful and hurting ..... better still,got song to hear ..... pretty dumb huh.Some
interesting lesson that was ....... gabriel and bryan was singing some crappy love songs in a very
unpleasenting way (zao sia).
followed again by math the kindergarden teacher ... heng her lesson she got phototaking "D
i open my kitkat shared it with jon ,jas,jr and me .Come to realise they all J i the only B lol abit odd ball .Nevermind that . english miss C.pilo never come for lesson "D again free period so went down to do D&T .Mr yushir (dont know how to spell his name) i understand can le lol. help me to finish up my product , with the handle and the magnet with the door like crap .The door and
magnet wasnt really a problem ,it was with the stupid handle we tried to do it like 5 times only the 6th time then pass .Dam irritating and funny cause we do and laugh do and laugh so ya distracted i admit abit kuku lol ....... well whatever the case i Finished my product offically Hurray.
Finally dont need stay back leeeeeeeeeee got time to study le . But must balance anyone wanna go out? lol
Labels: Wensday gone bad to good
Posted by ben at 8:20 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Back on track
Right on . Finally finished my D&T artifact . Stupid peice of shit took so long to make sia now need to update my journal and just need to finish off the handle and it should all good to go . Today pretty boring in school lesson not really anything that hooks up the interest expect chemistry ...... needa buck up more ~ zzzzz .Before recess today got phototaking quite fun la~ waste maths perioid~ stupid teacher ,teach like nursery kids ....... sucks sia ,might as well open her own kindergarden suan le.Maths totally lost its interest le thanks to her .....
Miss C.pilo ask us do letter writing my mind was pretty much blank anything i though i write down . it was more of an impromt2 letter so ya not verry good ya....
after school actually didnt plan to stay back for some reason i still stayed back and do d&t do until it was nearly completed argh..... took quite long and tiring shit sia ....... hate the stupid drawer thingy stick drop ,stick again drop ,stick one last time ,Drop.I had more then enough decided to use Double Sided tape LOL ...... dont ask me why i just lazy to try anymore .
After that went to the parade square and played netball . lol seriously i am not cut up for netball but ya i still played it with them .pretty tiring match for dom had to score most of it i just played as the game maker clear and pass nice ....... ya after that before going home
buy cat food .dam tired go home message people and sleep ......dam shag today
Labels: Back on track
Posted by ben at 9:04 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009
we are the best
Yesterday was one hell of a day , it was lots of fun with the guys .From the time i woke up kanna screwed by han yi until the end going back in the bus with shawn and olivier . we were big dummys with a great flavouring attitude to the start off the fun . =D reached downtown east about 12 to 12.15 to meet the guys ~ reach liao wearing ear piece cant hear anything until i recieve a phone call from shawn who was behind me with the guys . Met up went in and got changed i need to take off my top and that was it my water suit lol .shared a cabin with dennis and we shoved our bags in there and are all set to dive.Wild Wild Wet was heaven to us as we saw pretty much what we came for lol not telling ~
We went for donut like thingy ride 2 times and went 4 rounds of the laggoon for funnn...
While that happen well we happen to bump into this trio who had pretty much got splashed by wei jie who was actually splashing me sad case they were behind me lol ...... dont ask me why ..... i just turn around and apologise for quite a few times feeels a little weird ~ lol
we all went tsunamiing lol pretty stupid we played and floated there and CAPSIZED EVERYONE WE KNOW LOL ....... Freaking fun ....... me and zul went to explore the back of the tusnami thingy and found a sweet secret areana the waterfall was such a nice massage..... man that felt good if only there was a table to lie on that would be heavenly
we manage to talk to the trio and pretty much made friends .....although i got spoken bad of by them ya whatever its ok ........ well we had more then enough at 5+ changed and went to eat at some ku ku restaurant.... lol forgot what name ate hell alot of icecream sick man ~ lol
we all then when e-hub and slack outside the arcade and before we left the trio passed us and we decided to make a new friend so ya ......... after that we got drinks from cheers and when off after the pull ups at the chalet we all feel like it was the end of the year but it isnt hahahaha........ we head home after that ........ now my head is hurting like shet man ........ dont know whats wrong ...
Labels: Path of thy brethren
Posted by ben at 4:03 AM
Thursday, July 2, 2009
updating once again
Man its been long since i ever wrote anything in here its been too long well nevermind that. Now i am back to update everynow and then i guess .The "N" level examinations is like 2 or 3 months away damn it ....... too short time i think i wont make at my rate cause my science is like hell messed and screwed up dragging down me grades ....... my design and technology is another pain in the ass why of all things i though of some stupid sqauries box like artifact .. pretty Square if you know what i mean ........ hahaha hopefully by tml i will be able to get the stupid shet done cause its really starting to cause me some worries ...... damn the hell i must push on harder i cant go on like this at this rate i am buying a straight ticket to ite if i dont push up man -,- Die also dont want go there ....... i will force my way through...... man now like 00:14 of 3/7/09 man super tired well this is where i end my update to be continued some other day whenever that is i go sleep alreadyLabels: updated for once ?