Wednesday, October 24, 2007
reality?
One has to live a life of a poor and humble family while one may come from a rich and proud family..... thy live in the same world even though u may be poor and rich whats the difference the fact u are human thats enough to end the sentence ......
who gives a damn wheather u are smart rich and handsome ? ..... in this world knowledge is what will provide u with those paper dollars .... which means that if u do not have any knowledge the will power of earning those stupid paper dollars = 0.... simple as that ...
being poor also doesnt mean u can never shine out and be noticed by other people ....... its just that its a rare and seldom chance where a special event or occurance will boost ur level of fame or your chance of shining out in the world..........
i learnt that being poor and stupid does not mean its the end but the fact of being a stupid poor begger, really will leave a scar on me ...... it will really hit me hard and good...... i do not think i will be able to handle that pain or pressure...... given by all the failures...... it pushes me to the very end of what my metal strenght can hold or is up to.......... it leaves me in confusion and a "trap" ...... not knowing what to do first confused by other things that catch the attention of my mind ....... mixed up by all those bull shet ......
Hell does it suck...... being confused ......i cant think straight....... its leading me to a mental breakdown....... not sure if will land in insitute of metal hospital ......... even if should i lose my sense .... its best that i go there ..... lacked of self control will be very dangerous i would rather bang my head agains a wall then to strangle my friend till his death.... without knowing it and doing it with an empty brain...... it really hurts alot ........ i am confused........ help........
thinking too much about too many things how when why and what .... is never too good .... i though for too much and it cause me too many worries ....... demoralising my own spirit to do anything........ it sucks....... and zoning out too many times at 1 shot is not good man .... i can hear what u say but what u say doesnt go inot my head so whats the point ? its as good as u are talking to the wall.......Labels: reality?
Posted by ben at 1:12 AM