Sunday, August 23, 2009

I am Lost?

i realised these few days in the period within my prelim till last friday that i am lost in life.The passion drive is not there .And i have no aims in life .I have seem to let off all hope and determination.Damit whats wrong with me ......... i cant tell whats right from wrong now adays .I am so confused i have lost track of my life and my insticts ..... i am lost ? i guess ?

I live a boring life with friends that come by once in awhile .By nature a loner why is it i am scare to be lonely?
thats odd the emotions that potrait this picture is wrong .Everythings wrong, I am wrong .

To whom am i seeking my answers from to whom is it i gain my strenght from ?I want answers and i want a guide ,a guide that will lead my straight from astray though computer games ,gadgets ,enviroment .To be once again the sharp and be able to focus once again .

My wish to be lost again was granted but now i cant get back to my reguilar self . My wish was to be lost and found again being proven that i am wrong in my life and change over .... but i think the process is still preoceeding ....

I am not whom i used to be ,what i wanna be ,as i should be
What the hell am I ? I am still staying in my small and confined space awaiting help .
Sitting in solitude ...i wait alone

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Posted by ben at 8:18 AM